so i come home yesterday supes nervioso. myrtle had “exciting news”. long story short.. i came home and i have an interview set up for a scholarship! i also got my housing done for school next year.

anyways. to the point of the post..i’ll do a little backflashing to bring you up to speed: i had gotten sick earlier in the week. the snowcoming dance was thursday and i was feeling sickly still but went. went with a group of friends. anyways. i had a fun time. so did he. he said. then i felt sick so i had him bring me home instead of going out. then that next day was no school and we went to the spring dance show togeths with another friend to watch one of our besties dance/her birthday. then we went to our frineds house. 

got a little tipsy there ;) and then fell asleep while all of them watched a movie in the house lol. anyways saturday and sunday came and went with just homework and suchs. 

so last night i get a text from him. “can i come over tonight for a few minutes?” “yeah. why? lol.” “just to talk.” “should i be worried.” “we’ll talk when i get there.” so he got off work and came over. i met him outside and he got out of his car. from there my day went downhill pre fast. 

i honestly don’t remember how it all went but he just said he didn’t have the same feelings as he did from the start. we agreed to be “friends” and that we’d still go to prom in the end. hugged and came back inside. 

i came into the house and just said: “well. good thing i didn’t get anything for valentines yet.” 

i texted my friends and they were supportive and such. called my sister and she was good like expected of an older sister in this situation. 

i asked him today when he had started feeling that way. he said that about a week or 2. that upset me so i asked why he hadn’t done anything then. he said he hadn’t been sure of his feelings  he still has them they aren’t just the same and hopes we can be friends still that he thinks it’d be better that way. so yep

that’s that. keep posted laters.

also. LB in 10 DAYS!!!

looks like i will spend yet another year without a valentine. i was so close.

if you couldn’t catch that..my bf broke up with me tonight..

new year/new life/new beginings/newness..

so i never talked about new years eve.. my plans were starting to fall through. because of this my now bf, then thing, changed his plans to go with me to my original one. i thought that was sweet. but it ended up working out with my friends in the end.. well not really. i’ll get to that though. here we goooo;

he came to my house and we left to go to the party. i only drank 2 beers. i wasn’t much in the mood and yeah. my 2 friends weren’t having a good time so i think that’s also a reason. 

so at midnight we all yelled. it was wierd though. anyways he grabbed me and kissed me. it was kinda weird bc you know why. and then he took me over to a couch in the barn and i sat on his lap. after that he asked me if i would go out with him. obvi i said yes. he kept his arm aorund me pre much the whole night and held my hand as we were walking a friend who was leavins and then later in the night.

long story short party got “busted” by the person throwing it. he got pissed/drunk and kicked everyone out. he wasn’t going to drink but ended up so my friend drove his car (she was sober) and we were all leavin’s and we drove him to his friends house who wasn’t yet there and he was angering me a bit and i was like well we’re going. stay in the house and i’ll get you in the morning from here and drive you to your car at our friends house.

that night when i got home it was like 1 and he was texting me. he was considering going out again to a party. i demanded he stay there and he was all just like “don’t worry babe. i won’t. better get to sleep. i had a great time. i’m glad your plans changed. night.” so i got him the next morning and we barely talked since we were both tired/he was hungover. anyways.

then one night we went to the movie. wait no. that was before we started going out. okay sooo. back to somewhere nows.

oh. over break we chilled at a friends house with my cousin. it was ok. i was like ubeveliveabley tired so i just layed on the couch watching them play pong. lameass, i know lol. so then i left and suchs.

last night we went skating with 2 other couples of our friends.

we held hands and he put his arm around me the hwole way home even tho we were crowded in the backseat with 4 peoples.

so yes. that’s the whole story on my current bf. however. he’s 16. i’m 18. he’s a junior. i’m a senior. but idc and neither does he. so ype!

byeees. off to do some hw.

new year!!

quick recap: 

got my 1st kiss/new years kiss & now have a bf. will post lates about it. 

hope 2013 is as promising as i hope. 

<3 

place and not pieces. about freaking time man. 

so it was christmas last night. don’t want to bore anyone with that stuffs. long story short=fun &got real good gifts :D

that boy i told you about last week from the “party”.. we’re flinging i think. so we didn’t get to hang out that weekend cuz i was gones. and he kept mentioning how he wished i was there & suchs. came back & we had made plans for this last saturday. to go ice skating. adorbs date, yeah i know. so we went to des moines with 2 other people on a double date. we enjoyed ourselves quite a lot. i’m too lazy to say what we all did but the highlights:

-olive garden/skating

-shoppin’s

-target—card got declined. was a cutie

-ride home—talked && got stopped by a cop. that was eventful.

fastforwarddddding to last night!

so. we were texting at christmas. he was saying something about his phone is his #2  and i was like yeah, you’re cool. you’re car is #1. his response? that may change soon, never know. i asked what he meant.. he said it was a person. jokingly i tried getting it out of him and asked who it was and he said i think you already know ;) yes. cheesey, i know. but so cute. i’ve never had this!

so last night, well today at 1 am we were talking about stuffs. he is going to show me the chive? and i’m showing him pinterest and we’re having a snowball fight tismorrows. 

ohh! and with falling into place.. i decided where i’m going to college today!! 

iowa western :)) 

kay i’m done for the evening. adios. 

so last week when i said i wanted to go out? i went out. as in out like a “party.” i went to a friend’s house. me, her, and 2 of my guy friends. oh. rewind d390fkl;a

-a friend of mine gave my # to this boy. supposedly he liked me? anyways. a group of us went out that friday night. that boy? wasn’t what i thought? he didn’t talk to me and it was awkward. i wasn’t going for it ma’am or sir. there was however, this other boy who was cute and talked with me. okay now fast forward d390fkl:a

-so that saturday we had a little thing. the boy who was cute & talked to me ended up coming. oh jeez. this was the first time i’d been drunk. and i drank actual beer. like 4? anyways. he was my beer pong partner and was adorable to me. or maybe it was the alcohol? anyways. i sorta liked him from how we were acting towards each other. next thing i know sunday morning we’re tweeting. i wanted to exchange #s so i was tricky. long short. #s exchanged. 

he said he had a lot of fun that night. i said i did too and that i should probs be embarrassed because of my drunkennes. he said that i shouldn’t because it was really fun. so we’ve been talking literally this whole week. so far he’s made plans: for a study date, watching elf, getting me addicted to the chive and then wearing this shirt he told me about friday. also i’m going to beat him up cuz he’s sassy. okay. but the thing is i’m gone all this weekend. major sad face. so that’s that. btws. he’s sad too that i’m gone. but! he said next week/over xmas break we’ll hang out for sures and he’s already excited to. 

finally i’ve found a guy. he’s sweet, funny, and quite attractive. ik it’s only been a week, but he’s showing some real interest in me. i haven’t had that in, well, practically ever. we’ll have to see where this goes :)) 

kay. i’m off to bed.

i missed 1st period today becasue i fell asleep texting him and didn’t set my alarm :P 

okay for reals. niiight!

i wish right now i could rewind and live some old memories. really bad. all i want to do tonight is go out. i need to get on that soons. like if i could put 2 weekends ago back again.. oh man. 

kaybye